Learning About Me

I have learned several things about myself and about life these last couple of days...

I have learned that forgiveness is not a gift it is a choice. Truly forgiving someone is one of the hardest things for me to do. I can say I have forgiven them, but it takes work to stay true to that and not bring up the past, even when they hurt you again. I have learned that when God lays something on my heart, it is impossible to ignore it, and it is a blessing to listen. I have learned to appreciate those who give to those in need and I have learned to appreciate those those who are in need. I now know the difference between not having what I need, and not having what I want. Those two are very different.

I have learned that God is such a loving and forgiving God. He does not hold things against me and He does not want me to hold things against others. My husband is God's gift to me. He is my bestfriend and I love him with everything I am. I have realized that everything I have isn't really mine, but God's. It is just mine on loan.

I have learned that I have great friends in my life. I am so thankful for that. My family means the world to me and I am so lucky to have the family I have. I am not a hard person to get along with, but I am sometimes a hard-headed person. I try real hard to like everyone and I try real hard to have everyone like me. I can't stand to have someone upset with me, confrontation is so unpleasant. Sometimes I can wear my feelings on my shoulder, OK, more often then some, but I am working on that.

I have learned that it is OK that not everyone agrees with me on one particular topic. Sometimes it is good to have a variety of ideas and beliefs. I have learned to be happy about the way I am now, and not wish I was something or someone I am not. After all, "I" was not my idea in the first place, it was someone else's, someone much bigger and greater than me.